2017: A Year to Discover

2017The lights in my room were weak and dying. I suffered for so many months trying to cope with the lights in my room. I thought I could make it, that I can manage. But in reality I can’t. So when it was time to move on, when there was a chance to change the lights, I grabbed it. Then my life was changed, it was never the same. A little overacting, but it’s true. With a brighter light, I discovered a lot of things in my room, how dirty it was and how it needs to be cleaned. That’s when I realized that, I, myself, needs a change in my own light to have a different perspective in life.

2016 has been really really rough. There were a lot of tragedies, pain, drastic changes, international conflicts, flop music releases, death of amazing people, the list will go on. If I can describe 2016 in one word: SCARY. On a personal level, 2016 is really scary, and tough at the same time. It was a year of heartaches, struggles, financial instability, it was definitely a crazy year. It was unforgettable, but it was also really painful.

Yes, just like the lights in my room, my hope in life was weak and dying. I felt like it was the end of me, like I was gonna be nowhere. I didn’t have a chance to grieve, life had to move on. Life was fast paced and I had to follow. But it was hard to walk to the path of life when your light is dim, I was getting lost, but it was also my own choice. I just wanted to be in a dark path because I just wanted to cover the pain, and maybe in the end I would be better. Still, I wasn’t. Hiding in the dark didn’t help. Then I decided to face my fears, the cause of my pain, and had the courage to change the “light” in my life. And there, I realized that during these period of hiding, I was ruined, and that I didn’t realize that there were a lot of blessings that went in my way. It was all a matter of opening my eyes and changing my perspective in life. Very cliché, but it is true.

It was supposed to be a happy year. I was grabbing all the opportunities that came my way, all the blessings. But I forgot to enjoy what I have, to seize the moment. When I changed the lights, that’s when I saw how beautiful everything I had and that I have to start from scratch to fix everything. It was a poopy year, definitely, but we must not forget that there were a lot of blessings, too. There were amazing movies, beautiful music, wonderful changes in politics, powerful international connections and ties, eye-opening unity, there were a lot of things to be thankful for. Same goes with me, I still have school, I was able to save money, make new friends, received new “toys”, I was able to fulfill my goals this year. There were a lot of things to celebrate, and it is never too late.

The lights in my room are, still, gonna be weak and will die soon. But it’s always a matter of prevention, never dwell and let your body stay in a stagnant state. MOVE. 2016 was a year of opportunities, and I believe that 2017 is gonna be a year of discovery, a discovery of fruitfulness, success and amazing changes. 2016 shook our lives, and 2017 will show the results of all the hardwork we’ve done. Look forward and be ready, the previous year was definitely painful, but I say to you, there is still hope. 2017 is a year not just for a new calendar, rather for you to start over and leave all the bad things behind. Do not be afraid to begin again, be strong, and together we will move forward. HAPPY NEW YEAR! 🙂



My Best And Worst Moments Of 2014

2015Happy New Year! I might be late in posting but it is never too late to celebrate thanksgiving for a wonderful year I had last year and an exciting anticipation for this new year! Last year, I proclaimed that it’s gonna be a year of Progress and Prosperity, I may not have succeeded financially, but there is more than money that I should be thankful for. A lot has happened, 2014 is definitely a roller coaster ride, now let me share the Best and Worst Moments in my life that happened in 2014 :).

let me begin with the Worst Moments of 2014:

  • WEIGHT GAIN – I started to experience low self-esteem due to weight gain
  • SKIN ISSUES – this is also a factor of me having low self-esteem
  • RELATIONSHIP PROBLEM – this year tested and strengthened our relationship
  • BROKEN TV – we didn’t have TV during the 2nd half of last year, no more teleseryes :p
  • BROKEN LAPTOP – during the last quarter of 2014, our dog broke our laptop 😦
  • FLOOD INSIDE THE HOUSE  – my room is the most affected, most of my treasured items were damaged
  • WORK PROBLEM – though I was able to find a job, a needed to focus a lot so I can be regularized
  • DIFFICULTY FINDING A JOB – this year, I experienced how really hard it is to find a job
  • FINANCIAL PROBLEM – since I didn’t have a job, It was really hard for me to find sources of income
  • HEALTH ISSUE – this marked the most illness I had for a year, I was really scared

Now let me share the Best Moments of 2014:

  • KPOP – My bestfriend, Christopher, asked me to join him for a KPOP dance contest, it’s something new for me
  • NEW PHONE – since I didn’t have my own phone this year, my mom’s friend gave me a new one 🙂
  • NEW TV – let’s say it is the fruit of my hardwork
  • BRITNEY – I received a lot of Britney gifts this year! (Britney CD, Britney Doll etc)
  • VACATION – aside from not having a job, I was able to maximize my free time, and a vacation with family
  • HEALTH ASSISTANCE – though I was sick a lot of times, I was able to get proper aid
  • NEW JOB – this year, though I had difficulty to find one, I was blessed to have a new job
  • ANNIVERSARY – 2 years and counting ❤
  • BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION – every year, my Birthday gets better and better, with friends and family ❤
  • CHRISTMAS – one of the biggest Christmas celebrations our family had, with most of our relatives 🙂

Though this year was twice more challenging than 2013, I can say that I am very thankful of 2014. Last year taught me a lot, specially about patience, being grateful and faithful. I may not be abundant financially, but I am proud to say that I am rich in love, happiness and blessings. It also taught me that all beginnings are hard, but at the end of the day, there is always something to look forward to. Never lose hope, and never lose your passion, these are the things you must hold on to, and never lose faith, because it is your foundation to be stronger.

2015 will mark a bigger change, It’s gonna be a year of fruitfulness and positivity! All the hardwork and sacrifices will pay off this year! And I believe that God will never leave behind all those who were troubled last year. 2014 may be hard, but 2015 will change that, it’s gonna be full of blessings and hope. It’s gonna be a year full of opportunities, never waste this chance because you never know what’s waiting for you at the other side of the road. 🙂

Happy New Year! CHEERS!

Wild Life.Limitless.

I’ve been listening to this song recently. It’s very addictive and I can definitely relate to this song. It makes me realize a lot of things about life. Listening to this song makes me teary-eyed, realizing every line is true and beyond heart-felt. I’m not really sure why I’m making this post right now, but all I know is that I need to share this message I have in my heart that is inspired by this song.

Survival Of The Fittest

The song mentioned something like ‘the world is like a jungle, that it is a wild life and we should be careful’, it’s saddening that we have come to a point that we realize that our own home is our own death trap. Why have we come to this? Why have we come to a point that to be able to live, we have to follow the thinking that life is a “Survival of the Fittest”? Shouldn’t it be a unity of our kind, since we are the most intelligent in the world? Shouldn’t we be standing side by side helping each other? No, it’s the other way. Over the years, the world has taught us that we have to wake up, and work to live. We are in a generation where opportunities depend on social status and people will pull you down due to envy and greediness. Have we become predators of fortune and forgot the word “unity”? Have we forgotten that we are the human race and the person we are bringing down is in line with our bloodline? It’s really frustrating and words aren’t enough to describe how devastated I am to what the society has become.

Money Makes The World Go Round

It’s not all about love and harmony anymore, it’s all about money, fame and power. I have read somewhere that planet Earth is the only planet where you have to pay to live. I don’t get it. We have to work really hard to eat, have water, to have electricity, to have a house, actually you have to work really really hard to ‘live’, unless you are born to a wealthy family then working is not your problem, it’s the heir your going to think about, but if you are like me, less fortunate, who has to rent a house to live, who can’t finish my studies due to debt in school, who has to be underemployed to live, then you’d have to be ready because this kind of life is not easy. We have come to a point where we need money to have something. I have realized, there are only 2 things left that’s free in this world, one is Oxygen and the second one is to dream. At least I still have the first one, but the second one? I guess I have lost it by the time stopped schooling. It’s hard to dream big for me and my family’s future since it will depend on how much money we are willing to spend to fulfill our goals. Having a decent job in my country is really hard, they will require “Work Experience”, but the big question is how will people like me have work experience if they won’t give us a chance to have work experience. Our world has come to a point where we let people suffering to suffer more instead of giving them the chance to change what they have in their lives.

What If…?

I have always thought, what if the world didn’t revolutionize and industrialize? What if we continued living a primitive life? Would we suffer this kind of emotional and psychological struggle? Think about it, you wouldn’t be receiving water bills because you have your own way to get your water, you won’t have to pay for a house because you can simply build a small space for yourself, you don’t have to work under someone’s management since you live harmoniously and equally with others. You see what happened, we became dependent to comfort and to others. We became very complacent that when someone asked another to do stuff for him, he alone will receive comfort and the other one became dependent to what his master is providing, leaving a bloodline of slaves versus the authority. Why do we need to have someone superior when we are all humans, equal, as brothers and sisters? Yes, we need someone to lead us, to teach us, and that is called a leader because he acts like us, but someone who chooses to act superior is just a fool trying to abuse people under him. Because of comfort we became a generation of slaves, and you will always have to climb a ladder to attain superiority. I call this madness, if I were given one wish, then I would say bring us all back to living a simple life, a life full of joy and love, but in reality this wouldn’t happen. We are living in a cruel world, and it will destroy dreams, unless you have money, fame or power.

It’s nice to think how the world has taught us to be strong, and to be determined to reach our goals, but why does it have to be hard? Why does the world need to be unfair? Why should there be rich and poor people? Why do some people need to suffer and some sleep in luxury? Why do we have to work hard and others have everything they need in a silver platter? I really don’t know how to answer these questions, all I know is that when I answer these questions, I still need to work hard, nothing will change. People might call me skeptic or pessimistic, but this is what the world has done to me, I’ve been molded by experience and this is what I came to be. Yes, I do envy people living in luxury though I try to be happy in ways I can, but it still makes me realize that tomorrow is another day where I need to work. Life is never easy, hardships will depend on your social status, but in this generation that we have, what you become is what you chose to be. In every choices you make everyday, it will change whatever you have in your heart. Life will always be hard, it’s how you face it that will make it become lighter. It may be heavy now, but always remember, even in this kind of generation, we can still try to unite and help carry each other’s burden. No man shall be left alone, and a helping hand is always a first step of change, to restore faith in humanity.